Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Friday, October 3, 2014

Who I am now is not who I was nor who I will be.

To be honest, I am an observer and prefer it over participating most times. It generally comes from being a private person and not wanting to share to much of myself with anyone. Even so, there's nothing wrong with staying closed as I've dealt with alot of pain in the past. All because I was open, sharing and caring.

These days it takes quite some time before I will open my heart and bleed my soul to another human. Sad, but it's this way with my husband too. Don't get me wrong. I love Frank and we have a great relationship. We laugh, we cry, we love, we share.

But it could be better.

As I reflect over the next 5 days, I hope to gain insight into some of the causal issues in hopes of returning to the self of old. I liked her. However, I am completely aware that I may never be able to retrieve what was once a more amicable persona. And I'm okay with that. It's more about understanding and perhaps moving forward by truly closing past hurts.

Having one, and only one, close friend at present gives me opportunity to keep my life private. Even this one true friend doesn't get all of me, but she's the only one with whom I will open up at all. It's a shame at the same time because she is not good for my physical health. Her habits/addictions draw me to imbibe along side her at times.

Alas, no matter that I am well into the autumn of my life, I know that change is still on the horizon. While we change our permanent residence to Florida, it's a fresh start that's needed within so I will be changing as well. 

My journey over this next week is in preparation of a new life, a new home, a new beginning. During this process I will be opening up more in my writing and thus, hope to affect my reflection in a positive way.

This song is perfect for me at this point. Besides, anything by Christina A. is fabulous! Enjoy;)



Sunday, January 19, 2014

Live And Let Live? Maybe...

It is my believe that all forms of life have an inherent right to exist, but I do not follow, as some, in the hierarchy of value. All creatures have a purpose in the environment whether I understand or even know what that purpose is and I have strong beliefs that each has a definite role.

Some forms of life may seem ‘scary’ and I have a strong fear of these and don’t always live according to the ‘right to exist’ ethic. 

For example, I have killed the spiders crawling in my bathroom or set out bait to kill the sweet ants in my kitchen—with this said it leads me to a retraction:  I tend to put a value on certain life forms that are invading my personal space therefore I do follow a hierarchy of value when it comes to my fears or needs.

Acknowledging this hierarchy of value put on life, does this mean I will review my beliefs and not kill a snake that is threatening me outside of my personal space? No. I feel that I have a right to self-preservation, but my lack of knowledge as to actually what creatures (snakes?) are threatening my well-being may be a cause of unnecessary harm.

Possibly with more knowledge of my surrounding environment and its inhabitants I can learn to co-exist without so much fear and diminish my need to put a hierarchy of value on life. I definitely don’t want to do harm to any life and have actually tried to remove the ‘daddy-long-leg’ from my sink and place it outside and remove the spider from my car antenna by swiping it to the ground. Sometimes my fear overcomes, though, and I jump to step on the spider that crawls across my floor without trying to remove it first.

I consider myself a conservationist, though I have not been my whole life. In younger years I was more of a preservationist; believing that nature should be left minimally disturbed, providing only basic human influence by way of living with instead of destroying for comfort or wants.

Now that I have several decades behind me I see the conservation ethic is the more appropriate approach. By balancing resource use with its availability we can grow and develop within the environment while continually being conscious of and maintaining a balanced living environment for all life.

The preservation ethic goes hand in hand with a biocentric view on nature and life. With all life forms having a right to exist it is important to maintain the balance while allowing room for growth. This would be then expected that humans, with the ability to think and reason, should take continuous steps to ensure this balanced environment as other forms of life can not utilize this skill.

This could be as simple as leaving space for nature to exist undisturbed such as preserves and national parks and living within nature without disturbing the environment or natural habitats by invasion and overbuilding. Population is a major concern for with too much growth too fast will cause a need for survival of the fittest.

Being raised in a religious family, I believe in a Supreme Being as having created nature and all life forms. I have come to believe that evolution and creation are intertwined and as I stated in the beginning paragraph, every life form has a purpose and has survived or evolved as was intended from the origins of life on earth.

Population will eventually be controlled by natural events such as disasters and disease. (Was Katrina possibly meant as a cleansing tool? Aren’t new forms of viruses evolving to resist drug each new drug?)

 I will continue to learn and grow within my environment and strive to do what my beliefs lead me to as far as conserving and respecting all life and the environment. A more compassionate and conscientious attitude to do more is my responsibility as a thinking, reasoning being coexisting with other species.